i wanna live inspired

if only i could figure out a way to say what i feel about you

if only i could build the courage to tell you how you make me happy

if only i could come up with the perfect words and be confident in your response

if only you could be the one to tell me first so i wouldn’t feel in the dark

if only you were here.

if only…

hannahbanena:

I will not be cleaning the kitchen. I’m going to load my dishes into the dishwasher and that’s it. I’m sick of cleaning up peoples messes for them.

If I have time to do my dishes, you do.

PREACH IT SISTER!! i feel the exact same about the 9 person house i live in.

they usually follow one path and when some are killed by humans with a spray, they continue on the path like nothing happened, even if they might get killed. They don’t learn from history or their surroundings in this sense. They just leave their sister, brother, friend, there to die.

I guess that’s kind of like americans humans…kind of.

I guess I don’t really understand humans..

Thoughts?

so i was complaining to my friend Gordon about my online alg 2 class cuz it’s getting hard with adding and subtracting radicals and such an this is what happened next:

[7:46:47 PM] Sarah Jean: remind me why im taking this class?
[7:47:08 PM] Gordon Sluder: so you can get a slip of paper that says you know how to use a camera
[7:47:23 PM] Sarah Jean: why is that important again?
[7:47:35 PM] Gordon Sluder: So you can make more money
[7:47:44 PM] Sarah Jean: why is that important?
[7:47:53 PM] Gordon Sluder: So you dont live in poverty
[7:48:00 PM] Sarah Jean: why do i care?
[7:48:30 PM] Gordon Sluder: Because you want to be able to buy food and live in a house
[7:48:43 PM] Sarah Jean: do i really?
[7:48:48 PM] Sarah Jean: is that whats important to me?
[7:48:57 PM] Gordon Sluder: Thats what is important to me
[7:49:08 PM] Sarah Jean: but we are talking about me here
[7:49:35 PM] Gordon Sluder: well, I cant tell you what is important to you
[7:49:47 PM] Sarah Jean: thanks for trying
[7:50:03 PM] Gordon Sluder: Its up to you to decide what is important

I’m in school so I have health insurance. I am only taking one class, supposedly the last class before I can get my Associates in Photography. But what is that degree really going to do for me? I don’t see myself as a photographer as my money-making career anymore. I don’t really think I’ll have a money making career. I hate money SO much. Id rather go and live in a third world country away from temptation of making money and spending it on things I don’t need to survive. When I have money I spend it on all sorts of things. But now, I work as an unpaid intern for a great Non-Profit and I pay rent to live in the house I live in because our NPO doesn’t have the funds to give us a stipend or have the rent paid for. Which is fine. Maybe someday soon if we have a big enough donor for that.

Everyday I wake up, go to work at 9, come home at 630, and do my math homework. So I can get an AA in Photo to prove I can use my camera and I’m a photographer????

Someday it would be smart of me to go to school for something useful, like Social Services or Peace & Resolution Conflict like my momma keeps telling me. I just don’t want to take the time to do it when I have opportunities like this internship or opportunities to travel around the states and to Africa.

I just feel like I’m wasting my efforts on algebra 2. instead of focusing on other things that make the blood in my veins pump and my heart race.